Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 2:27 PM * Her.
I relli tot she was my friend...But on her blog, it was clear.
Her post was a few days ago's, and few days ago she didnt like me,
but it still hurts.
Today, we talked, sometimes, she and I got along okay when we talked, and I relli thought she had forgiven me.
About few days ago, there was a tiny "email war". Of course it wasnt that serious, but both kept calm after that, and then, we got along fine...
TODAY.
I did some stuff that has a meaning, but she thought it was another meaning, but she didnt know the truth.
I'm banished from THE table, and know I sit with my other classmates, sometimes even with boys.
There isn't game these days, and they always go to THE staircase and discuss, leaving me OUT.
That's what it feels like, to be despised.
I admit, I'm jealous, of them all, but I must say, I cant ask for more.
I wasnt in Fun Day team, as she didnt want me in.
But the leader of fun day team, agreed to let me in, but I must help.
And the leader is none other than her best friend, Sammie.
I thought, I was lucky to even get into Fun Day team, but now, I wanted more. I wanted to be part of the ORGANISING COMMITEE, to help in the preparations and be allowed to discuss with them at the staircase. I admit, I may have asked too much...
But my group, the group im in, dont even stay back, and I relli want to help, laz year i didnt help much. I dont even know whats going on, and I feel lost. Is like... now I relli relli wanna help, but nobody tells me what to do, nobody updates me. I wanted to do something, to contribute to Fun day and help earn money.
But now, today, she talks to me, and we get along okay, but I would relli like her, to stop putting the matter on her blog, and me too.
This post is filled with 10% jealousy, but seriously,, its 90% my feelings.